That's What You Say

that's what you say... i forgot how high you hold your own opinion.
listen, there's something you forget: you got some high-minded moral
relevance i'd like to call out, call out and about, take 'em out
to town on a philosophical organ thievery gang outing.
when i walk by, you make every attempt to project upon me what
seems to be a project you've spent a long time on: Dehumanize 1.0
my misanthropy is born of yours, i just want you to fuck off.
cause while you interpret my slanted gait as scum's footsteps,
i'm draping my guts all around your neck in a loving embrace.
totally content to give away the benefit of the doubt, but if you
want blood i've got a hundred thousand aliens whose ravenous
gaping teeth structures have waited all my life to taste flesh.
but lord knows i'm not trying to make threats; however, in an
attempt to even the stakes let's... discuss one question i'll propose
to you: why the fuck you take yourself so fucking seriously?
you've got a reason for everything, that's what you say.
slick your hair back, you say it's to impress the ladies.
well, let me tell you: every second you care about your hair,
you might as well have scabies. there are kids on this dear
earth with half their fucking faces ripped off, you think you're
fucking special or should be more careful? you should
remember you could die today. that's what i say.

Gross Times Four

With the ocean waves crashing drag my soul tonight
underwater there's no room for oxygen left in
my lungs clip crossed compressed through a
noise gate every syllable is an admonition
this thought I spread like an insidious
awareness my promises end well you know
folded inside the bag the medusa bared
breasts iron jag bitten bleeding gums
- next -
the infinite crystalline endeavours
of the half-robotic priest
the seagull flying over the bay
inexplicable attitudes convey
the darkest treason unseen

The Boardwalks

The boardwalks were my in-between, a place I could stop and stare at the bugs dancing on the rippling surface. I was ten, back then. I wasn't there, per se. If I bent over the soggy wooden planks, my face was right next to the lilies in the shade. It was there that I lost myself. The water expanded from a swamp to an ocean, the floating plants transformed into huge, dangling foliage. Spiders hunted enormous insects in a tense, vibrating posse. I could feel my body dissolve and be dragged into the morass. The sun bathed it all in a crystalline focus, white sparks glistening on the backs of ants.

this kind of death is enough for you

I apologize if for any of you if for you any apology is I for any.

- paradigm of human objectivity

- sublime presumption

- withered pieties

- antediluvian eons

death guides

Spiral vertebrae

The people with the backwards eyelids

Three impossibly black beards

A telescope that sees in every direction

The Devil's wings painted over my heart

Horns sprout from a headache

The true last taste, lost

Bet

third scar in demand devil's whisper dripping

paint off the plant while dirty seams

tear a hole stitch wide flat spaces

into disgruntled abstractions abstruse

and contrived rope twisted on the

skeleton hand it descended from view

as we left our safe harbors for

the bleakness of knowledge safe only

in our truest understandings fraught

through miserable prehistoric graveyards

where I left my beliefs then once

it was always before forgotten allies

skidded jerked and scraped behind

closed metal glass doors like the

windows that tore us from infinity so

far ago left sideways on concrete

drops the polar definition of a surprised

denial echoes to evince tragic timed

travesties lost feeling in every part

of my body lost sight of everything

oh what the hell I am not the

one I need to place your trust

in red streaks couldn't have better

indicated the sure slow safe bet.

staghorn

the little file devised an alternative to convenience

a side-by-side delinquent apparition

contrived to be described in paper lights

billowed oxygen floodgates between

Our noses have started to fuse gently the

cohesion our fingernails are breeding

a nice eternal symmetry while our faces

are biting each others' lips our ears

taste only the beat of animal organs

our arms freedom to our chests as

we press arm over arm leg over

belly our belly only one our hips

vessels of expressive joy our eyes

itching while kissing while tugging at

walls sounding a call come here right

now our brains are growing more

great and disparate while seeing the

truth finally our resignation from an

existence in loneliness our determination

as much from our hearts as our love

smearmouth

you've
got it backwards
you're proceeding through
a system that doesn't care
about your place, your monumental
contribution.

be.more.
than.your.
surroundings

die for
a cause

Negative affirmation
-embody corruption,
-enable rebirth,
-transcend human filth,
-realize human dreams.

//end

Exit Control

can't take it
can't live with this
everything is wrong
spinning too rapidly
whose smile is that
the teeth are showing
can't fake it
can't believe in this
black coffee white lies
black teeth white noise
black tendons white light
black out white Christmas
living in the middle of it all
middle of nowhere by 5 o'clock
tied to each other
by our fingers
my heart is my brother's
we are not sinners
can't shake it
can't be free of this
met you in my dreams
and we disappeared.

Happy 4/20

Support the legalization of marijuana, or you're an ignorant, brutish whore!

you make these letters
turn into nines
holy man said it better
turn away when you cry
bright face, lost space
I'll admire this city from afar
fright case, commonplace
white woman, leave this door ajar
red woman, your eyes are open
you haven't quite got it right
there was one spot
you didn't check
in a cave, on a boat
in a death threat
milk and cobwebs kept me awake
while her loving word kept me dry
this is the first path I will take
nameless terror at the sun's first light
you're not growing older
I'm just getting smaller
those intrusive thoughts
squander your innocence
don't let it get louder